My dear, I like this, and this is the reason for your username, it is kick ass!! But I must tell you this. It sounds like you are bi-polar, so you have a period of time when you are at an all-time low, and then suddenly an all-time high. I know what the high feels like. I'm conditioned in a way, where I only get the high, because, you know if I had the fuckin' choice, I'd rather feel good about myself, and most often times I do. I have Unipolar Mania. And I felt drained when I was on meds, almost mirroring depression, void of feeling.

But I must say, please take stock, of the way you are feeling right now. Yes, plans about future is ok, but, it is only achievable when we embrace the moment that we live in. Please, be careful, I wouldn't want you to be crashing like the Pound in the wake of the Brexit vote. Yes whilst you'd want to ride this out and know that I would too. Find a mellow. If its alright with you, would it be ok if I sent you a song about my mental condition? Its a rap! :)

I can relate to this so fucking much! But it's not just depression for me. I also know I have trust issues and I may or may not be paranoid.
During the times that my head feels clear and I'm actually happy, I feel like I know I was just being paranoid and it was all in my head. But over time, it all starts to come back.. I can't stop these thoughts creeping in and taking over.
It's great to snap back to normal but honestly, I think it's really scary knowing that it wont last.

Although it isn't my okay-day today, I can tote relate!

"My depression will never be "cured" and that I should make the most out of the periods of time when im not depressed."
I love that little but enough optimism we depressing people have. Sometimes I think it might be a gift for us that we can feel euphoric better since we know the contract between it and how is it to feel miserable

I’m glad you are on top of one of the many hills in life and are out of the fog... even if you still need to travel through more valleys. Enjoy the views young lady... [i]and try to follow the ridge for a while!!! 😊[/i]

I'm glad you're in a better place right now. Depression is a constant battle. The ones that never experience it will never understand.

It’s good to hear you’re experiencing some happy!!

I understand. I'm glad you can see the sun again. I hope this in the new normal for you.

Whatever it is, I hope it stays with you! 🤗

It's good to hear things are going well for you.

depression doesn't exist.

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What a beautifully written post that truly explains how depression effects someone, I hope you continue to beat it and reach out to people when you notice the fog drifting in, I understand that is difficult. I think your post will help a lot of people, maybe they won't feel like they are alone or broken, nicely done, I wish you well

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