must be stressful putting so much weight on ur shoulders, which I respect a lot.. Cos I know as humans it's easier to complain and blame our problems on everyone or everything else but ourseleves, and even so when we blame on ourselves..it's one thing to self-pity (which I do a lot) and another to actively seek out how to become a better person to ourself and to other people.. which I feel you have done a lot for urself and ur family and that's why you feel so much stress..and sometimes some problems are out of our own control.. And that's okay, It's just hard to know when to let go and when to keep pushing forward..but I'm sure ur wise and a compassionate person..u'll be able to figure it out 💗