@Autumnlover Yeah, I've realized this not long ago...I've felt dumb for not being able to let it go and really move on...but I know it's really heavy...I have a very hard time accepting it, because I feel like I'm still paying a very expensive price...missed so many chances...opportunities, relationships...I don't feel regret, but at the same time I'm not at peace with it...I know I did and am doing my best.