I Have a Autistic Son

I have a son who is 5 1/2 and he was just diagnosed with high functioning autism. Educationally he is fine. He is on track as with his education and is not behind on anything. He autism effects him socially and how he communicates. If you met him you would think that he was just another crazy 5 year old boy. In ways he his but in other ways he isn't. He is very outgoing and talks way too much sometimes. He loves to be the center attention. He loves to dance, sing, and play with his legos. But when it comes to dealing with other people especially kids his age is when his autism really shows itself. He has no problem being in the same room but sometimes he doesn't want to play with them just next to them. And other times he does want to play with them but he doesn't know how to really say and communicate that he wants to play or how he wants to play. He is not non verbal in the least. And he can be understood about 98% of the time. The hardest part of my son being autistic wasn't him being diagnosed (that in itself was a blessing, we had no idea what was wrong with him and just wanted answers). The hardest thing is to watch your son really try to be "normal". I watch him try so hard to not have an episode where he starts crying because he just doesn't understand what he's feeling. Or to watch him try and give his grandmother a hug but it causes him to shiver or shake because he hates being touched by anyone except me or his father. I have no problem or regrets when it comes to having an autistic son. It's just hard as a parent and a mother to watch your child deal with something that you have no idea as to how it feels and have no permanent way to fix it. #dedeout