Cursed with a brain that constantly weighs and analyzes everything damn thing

The variables, the possibilities, the good, the bad, the ugly. Autism makes me interesting, but it also makes me so conscious of patterns that its painful. I take in all the data thats available to me and it only makes things more complicated.

From the outside it can look like laziness, but inside its choice paralysis or just plain overload of my brain and senses.

I can see why we tend to die earlier 🙃