Knowing it helped me changed

I was cearly autistic as a kid but no one really knew what autism looked like except for the stereotypes. It was more then just being a little awkward and different. No, i was one of the the weirdest, most annoying real life lolcow you would ever meet. I said the most shocking things and had no social clues about anything and didnt care about how i looked, acted or presented myself. I could not hold my weirdness back ever. But at 16 when I realized i dont think like other people and finally understood what autism ment my first results was to cut off everyone and shut up, then i couldnt make a fool of myself that only worked for school i didnt know how to be someone else at home so my behaviors really didnt change not until the last year have i considered myself normal functioning and it took a lot to get there. After growing out of alot of sensory issues, learning social clues until they are natural, and learning to be able to maintain my life. Well i can say autism doesnt feel like a curse anymore it doesnt feel like anything im me and the people around me like me for me.