I Am Autistic

That is my chart. Not conclusive for autism, but it's just a chart.

Autism has still a very narrow and rigid definition.

If I consider sensory, communication and execution, well, I am.

I have potential, varied skills, I can communicate, I have learned, mostly hate it though. I prefer the communication I have with cats. I do understand humor, it's just that mine's a bit different, I do understand hypocrisy, I do make eye contact. And have empathy and imagination, it's probably not expressed the same way, because I can't fake comfort, and I can't fake love, and I can't even fake a hello. So humor is a good thing.

Sensory is awful. Execution is compromised due to sensory exhaustion, and frustration is high. I'm also gifted, on the artistic side, I did theatre a few times a couple of months ago, again, and quit, because they practice NLP there, and I can see the whole communication and it disgusts me.

So, I do things on my own, which I enjoy and clearly need, and learn to be more flexible on my rigid thinking, and mostly analytical mind It's just when I say, I do, and when I love, I give, with no expectations. Sometimes I'm physically sick of people.