Funny how there's no doubt, yet it took so long lol
When I first went back to therapy 2 years ago, we didn't even finish the questionnaire before the psychotherapist told me I needed trauma treatment, there was no doubt.
Then when I went to find out if I should do a 4 day program for my anxiety/panic, he said half way thru our conversation, that there was no doubt that I had a panic disorder, however because of my trauma, I had to wait with the program.
And today my psychologist told me that she's usually never sure about a diagnosis before she's finished talking to parents, but in my case, it's so obvious that I have ADHD, that unless my mom says something completely different, then we need to talk about how to continue with that.
Also with my eating disorder, it was obvious for everyone..
Clearly I'm only good at hiding it from my family and friends, and not so good at hiding it in therapy lol. Which is a good thing, but after masking for 30 years I'm still surprised that it's so obvious for everyone🙄😂
I'm honestly relieved to be diagnosed with ADHD, cause now my whole life makes more sense..
On the other hand, trying to figure out how do to therapy, when there's so much going on is super hard.. I've done treatment for my cptsd, which didn't do much, so now I'm going to do EMDR. We tried to treat my ED, which also didn't go well, but I feel like I'm stable now, so it's fine. I never got the treatment for my panic disorder, but I feel like the meds help some with that so It's not any crisis right now. And now she wants me to try group therapy for 3 months for ADHD, which honestly sounds absolutely horrible!! The second she said that there will be classes on it I zoned out lol. I just picture a school setting, with a teacher talking about everything I do wrong, and how to change my brain.. I also have to work on it outside of therapy, and they will call to check on me in between sessions. Horror.
Can I just have a new brain already?🥹
Then when I went to find out if I should do a 4 day program for my anxiety/panic, he said half way thru our conversation, that there was no doubt that I had a panic disorder, however because of my trauma, I had to wait with the program.
And today my psychologist told me that she's usually never sure about a diagnosis before she's finished talking to parents, but in my case, it's so obvious that I have ADHD, that unless my mom says something completely different, then we need to talk about how to continue with that.
Also with my eating disorder, it was obvious for everyone..
Clearly I'm only good at hiding it from my family and friends, and not so good at hiding it in therapy lol. Which is a good thing, but after masking for 30 years I'm still surprised that it's so obvious for everyone🙄😂
I'm honestly relieved to be diagnosed with ADHD, cause now my whole life makes more sense..
On the other hand, trying to figure out how do to therapy, when there's so much going on is super hard.. I've done treatment for my cptsd, which didn't do much, so now I'm going to do EMDR. We tried to treat my ED, which also didn't go well, but I feel like I'm stable now, so it's fine. I never got the treatment for my panic disorder, but I feel like the meds help some with that so It's not any crisis right now. And now she wants me to try group therapy for 3 months for ADHD, which honestly sounds absolutely horrible!! The second she said that there will be classes on it I zoned out lol. I just picture a school setting, with a teacher talking about everything I do wrong, and how to change my brain.. I also have to work on it outside of therapy, and they will call to check on me in between sessions. Horror.
Can I just have a new brain already?🥹
