I Have Adhd
I got diagnosed last year. Up until then I just thought I was stupid and weird (which I guess I am). People think I use ADHD as an excuse to be lazy and fool around and forget shit but it's a real struggle just to maintain some sort of normalcy when you have a brain that will just not slow down until it gets overloaded then shuts down making even forming coherent sentences a struggle.
The worst bit about it for me is my complete lack of patience. I can't stand small talk. I get the urge to scream when I'm bored. I get rushes of nervous energy running through my body, my mind completely opens up taking in everything around me Except what the person is saying. I'll have a thousand thoughts in my head at once, not one has any relevance to the conversation I'm supposed to be taking part in.
i feel like I have a child's brain. Having sensible adult conversation makes me feel overwhelmed, like I'm acting like I think people expect me to. It's draining, makes me feel so fake and dull.
I guess as far as mental illness goes I'm quite lucky though so I can't really complain. There's far worse. If I'm honest, as frustrating and isolated as it makes me feel, I'd probably rather have it than not. After all, sometimes I get to laugh myself to sleep. Not many illnesses can say they do that 😌
The worst bit about it for me is my complete lack of patience. I can't stand small talk. I get the urge to scream when I'm bored. I get rushes of nervous energy running through my body, my mind completely opens up taking in everything around me Except what the person is saying. I'll have a thousand thoughts in my head at once, not one has any relevance to the conversation I'm supposed to be taking part in.
i feel like I have a child's brain. Having sensible adult conversation makes me feel overwhelmed, like I'm acting like I think people expect me to. It's draining, makes me feel so fake and dull.
I guess as far as mental illness goes I'm quite lucky though so I can't really complain. There's far worse. If I'm honest, as frustrating and isolated as it makes me feel, I'd probably rather have it than not. After all, sometimes I get to laugh myself to sleep. Not many illnesses can say they do that 😌
