I dread the time of day when all my responsibilities are fulfilled

my friends have gone home, all the little distractions I’ve put in place are over. And now I have to sit here with myself. Every breath is hard to take. I wish I could be content, or even just relax.
I hate being alone right now.

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Reject · 31-35, M

Maybe a hot bath? I like those when I’m feeling tired and ready to wind down.

Lisafriend27 · 31-35, F

@Reject haha if you don't get sleepy lol

itsok · 31-35, F

@Reject I love a hot bath. I generally have to avoid them when I’m not feeling well because of mental contamination ocd. I can get stuck in the bath for hours

Reject · 31-35, M

@itsok We can’t have you getting all pruney! Scented candles and some sort of speaker with rainfall sounds. I don’t know if you read, but that’s an excellent and healthy way to create a ritual your brain is familiar with that can turn it off for a while.

itsok · 31-35, F

@Reject I read a lot. I think I’m at 53 books read for 2025 so far. I just finished one today.

Reject · 31-35, M

@itsok Oh my goodness! That is a lot. It must help a lot then. I myself like to write as well, but I understand that’s not for everyone. What did you learn from the last book?

itsok · 31-35, F

@Reject what kind of things do you write?

I learned that even if a storyline is interesting, I don’t want to continue a series if the writing style irks me 😁

Reject · 31-35, M

@itsok I’ve written short stories! But the biggest book I’m working on is titled “Becoming Love” and it’s a lot of personal philosophies I’ve come up or seen involving self actualization themes and learning how to be everything you need instead of looking for everything you need.

😂 You know writing style is totally a thing. I never thought about it that much, but now you got me thinking.