What should I do to help better myself?

I'm lonely and I look to the future all the time. I plan excessively for future relationships. I can't decide if I want my future gf/wife to be my age, a year younger, two years younger or even five years younger. I don't want a big age difference as long as she is a sweet Christian girl who is anywhere from my age to five years younger that's fine. I know I have to get it together before I meet someone. I also struggle with OCD and anxiety. I really want peace. In the meantime I want to focus on bettering myself.

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ThePatientAnarchist · 61-69

You don't really get to decide in advance on details about a partner/spouse that you haven't even met yet! Be open to who you might connect with and love.
In the meantime, how about trying to build more of a social life by connecting with people that you have shared interests with? What do you do for fun?