Im tired of pretending im ok.
Ive been clean for 2 months now, but it's hard for me.
22-25, F
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Congratulations! That's quite an accomplishment. I admire you for your perseverance. It is no easy Journey. Just don't get depressed and fall back into it okay? You've come too far for that to happen. You'll be glad you stuck with it and your life will improve as you go along. Don't forget. Problems are only temporary and we all do get through them. Sometimes we have to make adjustments so that we can be happy but we always do get through them. And it's alright to not be okay sometimes. Society acts like it's a crime if we don't feel happy all the time. As if there was something wrong with that. We can learn from our "not so good times" as well. They tell us something needs changing but they're not there to hurt us. They are there to help us see that something isn't working out too well for us in our lives and it needs to be changed. It may be someone who is hurting us or the environment we are in, but sometimes we need to get the toxic things out of our lives and I'm really proud of you far hanging in there in tough times but there may be another little adjustment you need to make and when you make it, things will feel so much better and you won't want to turn to drink for escape.
It's not easy to walk a straight line, so to speak, sometimes, but it is well worth it. Just take it one day at a time. You've done a great job. Sometimes writing in a journal helps get frustration out. And sometimes, it's not even about all that. Sometimes we just get lonely. Doing a little artwork sometimes helps. It doesn't have to be perfect. Just something you like. Or working a puzzle, like my sister does. Also, remember this. Look how many days you have made it without drinking. This tells you you can do this and continue doing this. Not easy, no because no addiction is but it does show you that you're capable of making the right choices and so now you just must be consistent with it. It might help to ask yourself "will taking another drink, benefit me today?" You already have the tools for Success remember that. You do know right from wrong and you're exercising it. Ask yourself if it's worth it and I don't think overindulging in anything is worth it. I could overindulge in food every day if I wanted to. I don't think addiction is anything to be ashamed of. It is what it is. While we're in this flesh, we will always fight the flesh and it's always wanting us to do just the opposite of what we want to do. We'd be lying if we said we don't. I always pray that God will help get me through the day with fighting this flesh. And he does. Is it easy? No it's not. If anyone tells you differently, they're a liar. God never promised that he would take temptations away, but He did tell us He would help us through them, one day at a time. We can't be looking about what's going to happen tomorrow. The Bible says tomorrow will take care of itself. When we pray, God helps us through this day. I find He gives me great strength, when I start my day with prayer.
It's not easy to walk a straight line, so to speak, sometimes, but it is well worth it. Just take it one day at a time. You've done a great job. Sometimes writing in a journal helps get frustration out. And sometimes, it's not even about all that. Sometimes we just get lonely. Doing a little artwork sometimes helps. It doesn't have to be perfect. Just something you like. Or working a puzzle, like my sister does. Also, remember this. Look how many days you have made it without drinking. This tells you you can do this and continue doing this. Not easy, no because no addiction is but it does show you that you're capable of making the right choices and so now you just must be consistent with it. It might help to ask yourself "will taking another drink, benefit me today?" You already have the tools for Success remember that. You do know right from wrong and you're exercising it. Ask yourself if it's worth it and I don't think overindulging in anything is worth it. I could overindulge in food every day if I wanted to. I don't think addiction is anything to be ashamed of. It is what it is. While we're in this flesh, we will always fight the flesh and it's always wanting us to do just the opposite of what we want to do. We'd be lying if we said we don't. I always pray that God will help get me through the day with fighting this flesh. And he does. Is it easy? No it's not. If anyone tells you differently, they're a liar. God never promised that he would take temptations away, but He did tell us He would help us through them, one day at a time. We can't be looking about what's going to happen tomorrow. The Bible says tomorrow will take care of itself. When we pray, God helps us through this day. I find He gives me great strength, when I start my day with prayer.
Mamapolo2016 · F
Two months is terrific!
Letting go of an addiction, whatever its nature, is definitely a major achievement - and a big change.
Are you doing it alone? Do you have a reliable support system? Make that a goal.
I suggest linking up with a 12-step program. Get some phone numbers so you can call somebody you don't have to pretend with when you're feeling shaky.
Message me if I can help. (more than six years sober...I do get it.)
Letting go of an addiction, whatever its nature, is definitely a major achievement - and a big change.
Are you doing it alone? Do you have a reliable support system? Make that a goal.
I suggest linking up with a 12-step program. Get some phone numbers so you can call somebody you don't have to pretend with when you're feeling shaky.
Message me if I can help. (more than six years sober...I do get it.)
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