Im so tired.

Hi im Sam and i am struggling with depression, social anxiety,anger issues, trust issues and they are getting worse and my mentel health is also gettinf worse i don't have anyone to vent to or i do but im to scared to vent bc they might spread it even tho they won't! I have an ex bsf since grade 1 and u got my trust issues from her.!!! :) and lately a lot of people are backstabbing me and lieing to me!!! And i want to end my life but i also don't want to i didn't do anything to the people who are backstabbing me and i have had enough if we graduate to the next grade i need new classmates they are to dangerous for my life i wanted to end my life bc of my family,classmates and they keep on backstabbing me and i can't tell this to my parents bc they won't take my side bc they don't want timo fight bc they are to busy with work and that's okay! But my mentel health is getting worse and worse i just can't vent to anyone right now and i am currently crying while typing this i think that everybody is backstabbing me or either acting like my friend and being a plastic friend to me:) i would wanna end my life to start a new one but no i can't idk why thank you for reading:)