Not suicidal but....poetry

I'm not suicidal, not in the sense I'll go out of my way to do it. But I wouldn't be upset if I died.
I'm not suicidal, but I don't look when I cross the street.
If someone had a gun pointed to my head I wouldn't cry and beg, I'd let them pull the trigger.
I'm not suicidal, but would it be so bad everything hurts and no one would be sad.
I'm not suicidal, but then again maybe... I am


This is an outlet for my depression. It helps. If you have nothing nice to say just scroll by.