You know what sucks

You know what sucks?
Knowing the down slope of depression is coming. Being able to feel the turning point.

Right now I feel fine, not happy, not down, just fine. But I can tell by the thoughts in my head, the messages my subconscious is sending me, that it's about to turn shit. Right now while I'm writing this, I can fully feel that I'm about to start feeling like complete and utter shit.

This sucks.