I don’t know

I’ve had a past of suicidal attempts and it’s because of how my family treats me I thought every time maybe they would change how they treat me but no it’s all the same blaming me acting like I can be perfect fucking Barbie when I’m only human I know not everything is about me and I shouldn’t be treated like god but shit the stuff they put me through litterally makes me want to jump of a cliff I don’t even know how to cope anymore