What do I do to make me happy?
I don’t see a point in anything anymore.
My mental health definitely goes up and down a lot, but recently it’s getting really bad. I have no energy and no motivation to do or feel anything. I look forward to sleeping since I get to feel nothing. School is making everything worse. I strongly believe that my friends dislike me, maybe not all the time but every time I say something they always make up a reason that says I’m shitty for saying or doing what I did. And it’s draining (everything is). Maybe I’m just very self critical. It’s just so hard feeling this way all the time. And I have no one to talk to. Not my parents because it’s going to be to much for them. Not my siblings, they don’t understand. I want to talk to my friends, and they tell me that I can vent to them, but no. I don’t want to vent to my best friend either because I don’t want her to feel like it’s her responsibility to keep me happy and going.
I’m not enough for anyone, not even myself.
My mental health definitely goes up and down a lot, but recently it’s getting really bad. I have no energy and no motivation to do or feel anything. I look forward to sleeping since I get to feel nothing. School is making everything worse. I strongly believe that my friends dislike me, maybe not all the time but every time I say something they always make up a reason that says I’m shitty for saying or doing what I did. And it’s draining (everything is). Maybe I’m just very self critical. It’s just so hard feeling this way all the time. And I have no one to talk to. Not my parents because it’s going to be to much for them. Not my siblings, they don’t understand. I want to talk to my friends, and they tell me that I can vent to them, but no. I don’t want to vent to my best friend either because I don’t want her to feel like it’s her responsibility to keep me happy and going.
I’m not enough for anyone, not even myself.
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