Plainly downhill

This day was the worst for me. I felt so down as if I was being weighed down. My head was starting to ache and I didn't like the feeling of it considering I was literally in the middle of class. I couldn't pass my activities on time and our subject teachers were a bit mean today. It felt new yet rude to me. I procrastinated again, being out and showing myself to random people is getting weird for me. I hate this feeling, as if there were eyes locked on me, judging my whole being, what I'm wearing, what expression I was making, everything, just judging what my character was. It's suffocating, I wish I could just go back to the way it was when I used to be naive and outgoing. In that way I couldn't care less if anyone talked bad about me at all since all I cared back when I was a child was only myself. It may sound selfish but in that way I wasn't sad, instead I was happy. No one could hurt be considering I was only aiming for myself and I didn't care about anyone elses opinion because it was just me, myself and I. Maybe, just possibly maybe I could also feel the same way about that too when going outside today. Just feeling as if I'm the only person in this world, no one is watching my movements, it's just me and myself and all I need to do is to relax and have my time and peace. I wonder if taking a walk at near the seashore is a good example of it.