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assemblingaknob Let's investigate this, if you want. I know my negative mantras, playing in the background of my head, so subtle I don't even know unless I pay close attention. Those are sentences like " I am not wanted / I am unworthy of attention, as if I have no value to offer / I am the decor, a supplementary item / I am transparent on a level I become a ghost into this world " and some more equally graceful statements. Those eat up my light and I know it now. When I am at my strongest, nothing touches me, but in my weakest moments I can still fall back to my old pains.
I have figured, I am telling myself that all I want is to be connected and am willing to sacrifice everything of myself in order to obtain a connection. But you know, what happens next is, it's not I who is connected then...
We have to be ourselves dear 💗 and only connect from*that* point.