Trauma and body issues

Since I was abused and I was also sexually assaulted, I want to start fresh and have an body that’s not being used in horrible ways and one that’s never been touched. Simple things like dying my hair really helps as I never had bright pink dip dyes in my hair during those times. It’s like an brand new self and so you are no longer that person who was traumatised. An new version they no longer have access to. I don’t think I’m ugly ; I know I’m beautiful , but what was done to me was ugly. I’m having cosmetic treatments for my boobs and my body and my hair , I’ve also had an change in personality and I have more boundaries , I also have brought new clothes and I’m working on having an brand new wardrobe , I’m going to sell my old clothes or donate them to charity , next is just to cut every single person off who’s caused the trauma after I’ve gotten enough money to move away with.