So what the hell was I exactly panicking about?

I really appreciate how I ALWAYS manage to lead myself into respectable panic attacks, just out of the blue... I'd be sitting in peace, and then my mind will search for something, something, to play a little with me!

So ever since I reached Canada, I have not checked my work email, not once. Idk how, but I JUST FORGOT ABOUT IT. Which is usually not the case.. When I am on vacations, I always keep an eye on my work email every now and then.. Sometimes I'd even check it daily... this time, work hardly crossed my mind..

I had a peaceful day today under the rain, and I was just having dinner and watching my show.. only to remember that its been long since I checked my email... then I started panicking, what if I missed something important (I knew there will be nothing important 🤷‍♀️) So I tried to log on from the browser, only problem is that I needed to authenticate the sign in through a code sent to my phone number... But my SIM card has been out since I reached, because I put in my Canadian number instead.. here I managed to lead myself into another panic attack, that maybe there have been any types of fraud on my accounts which I would find out about because I am not receiving bank messages on my phone, and my bank can't even reach me!!

I had to have my other SIM card in!! I struggled to be able to open my other phone and put in my other SIM card in (very stupid, I have two phones, don't know why I didn't put the other SIM in it)... then I logged into my work email, and checked all my text messages... nothing excited.. So what the hell was I exactly panicking about?