No one will ever really understand how borderline personality f.ucks your perception of reality so much that you believe what you see is real

But your mind is tricking you. But you can only see what your mind is convincing you to see. And you will never know deception from reality. You cannot ever trust your own eyes and your instincts. You will never know if they were laughing with you or at you. People will always be extremely good or utterly horrible. You will never be able to love without the hate. And you will never be able to just walk out when you're done. Because your favorite person is your safest place. You never learnt how to live without them. And you will ruin all your relationships. And hurt yourself. And always be on the verge of quitting your job.

You will always be a monster.