Make like a phoenix

Hi. I'm in the UK. Feeling a bit low today. Yet again, saying something at work that I later realised was rude. So upset and mortified I don't know how to go back there. Can't stand people being angry with me. Sometimes I wish I had no feelings and didn't care what anyone thinks of me. Unfortunately I'm a complicated mix of EUPD (BPD) and Aspergers. Life keeps crashing and burning. I bounce back but don't get any tougher.