I’m having a really hard time

This past week has been terrible. Completely terrible in every way. I feel so alone. I feel unwanted. Sometimes I get so upset I feel sick. I see all these people and my friends who have great relationships with their parents, they’re married to the loves of their lives..I’m not saying theyre perfect or don’t have problems..I just want to feel loved too.
Every girl I talk to tricks me and says they like me and want to be with me and then turns around and says they don’t want me at all. Or I get stood up. Or they just don’t respond. I don’t know what I’m doing wrong or what’s wrong with me to make me so undesirable. I really try to me a good person and treat people well.
I’ve never wanted to kill myself, or even thought about it. This week I was thinking about what would happen if I just wasn’t here. Because this feeling, the emptiness throughout my entire body has to stop, I don’t know what to do.

JestAJester · 31-35, M

For me I found myself a goal to work towards. I told myself if I ever want what these people have, I have to have something that other people want. I have to be appealing and attractive. I have to become that person. This also has the added benefit of boosting your confidence. I started with weight lifting, yah I know I mention it a lot but its doing wonders for my confidence. I'm not nearly at the level I want to be at yet but I'm seeing the results and feel so much better about myself. I'm hoping someday I will be attractive enough