how to handle the anger my paranoia brings when i think someone means 'other things' than what they's saying
yesterday i posted something about the internet age, asking, ' do you think this digital age or internet age is problematic at times '.
and some man from the U.S answered and i got paranoid about the words he used and didn't like his reply because of that, he posted;
and i picked out the sentence ' Everything is good or bad, black or white. ' and thought he was insinuating something false, that i was black and non white.
so i instantly got angry and replied with; i didn't like your insinuation there, i'm white you pr*ck!
and he stopped responding after i came back with that, but that's how my paranoia makes me at times, i think people are really meaning other things than what they're saying, or insinuating something about me which isn't true.
what does anyone think about this? and how can i handle it when these situations happen with people? because i realize i cannot control what people say or express, make them shut up...they are free to say what they want, just as i am...but when i'm in the grips of paranoia, i don't see it that way, and i take everything personal.
thoughts?
and some man from the U.S answered and i got paranoid about the words he used and didn't like his reply because of that, he posted;
It speeds information sharing, and promotes opportunities for more global communication and understanding as promised. Unfortunately, it also has led, imho, to a new, excessive polarization of ideologies where only one extreme or another is permitted. Everything is good or bad, black or white. The algorithms have flushed out nuance, context, and now AI is trying to summarize everything into word salads of meaningless gobbledygook. 1984 -- the book, as well as the year -- has arrived.
and i picked out the sentence ' Everything is good or bad, black or white. ' and thought he was insinuating something false, that i was black and non white.
so i instantly got angry and replied with; i didn't like your insinuation there, i'm white you pr*ck!
and he stopped responding after i came back with that, but that's how my paranoia makes me at times, i think people are really meaning other things than what they're saying, or insinuating something about me which isn't true.
what does anyone think about this? and how can i handle it when these situations happen with people? because i realize i cannot control what people say or express, make them shut up...they are free to say what they want, just as i am...but when i'm in the grips of paranoia, i don't see it that way, and i take everything personal.
thoughts?
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