could this be true

i have struggled with paranoid thoughts for a long time, well, since i was 16 years old, i'm 47 now and ive had reoccuring thoughts that there are people stopping me from having a girlfriend and stopping me from getting the things i want in life? or there are people telling women to stay away from me..?

in my life i have never been in a relationship, i had quite a few sex flings with girls in my youth but no actual relationship.

could my thoughts that i'm being stopped from having a girlfriend or they're being told to stay away be true or is it all my paranoia?

i get told off my parents that the only thing which has stopped me is my own mental health problems, nothing else....and i see that, but sometimes still get suspicious about external sources controlling things.

any thoughts?

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JestAJester · 31-35, M

Jesus dude I've had these exact same thoughts. Seems whenever i get involved with a girl they disappear on me. Get ghosted a lot, no contact whatsoever. Cant help the thought of someone somewhere is warning or threatening them to ditch me. Same thing with happiness. It feels like someone is giving me just enough in order to take it away so I suffer even more. Ive had a few sex flings myself but they were never fulfilling by themselves. Coincidence or is there really some entity that is putting us through the ringer for their own entertainment?