The Second Round

I haven’t felt this empty in such a long time. The last time I felt this way was a few years back and it was one of the worst times of my life. What’s worse is that I’m the reason for the decline in my mental health. The only person I can really blame is myself. I can’t take my anger out on anybody because, ultimately, they have never done anything wrong to me. I’ve been my own worst enemy from the start and I fear it’s going to stay like that for a long time. I guess the first round of beating myself up wasn’t enough.

The worst person to be is a person who is aware that they are bad. They are aware what they do hurts people. They are aware what they do causes harm. They are aware that what they do isn’t even good for themselves. Yet, they still do it. Why? You know that the core problem of this is yourself, yet, you still don’t have a solution? I ask myself this too many times.