im so lost

i feel like there is something utterly wrong with me. there is something so severely wrong with me and there always has been, but i have never been able to point it out or figure it out and its genuinely exhausting me. i try so hard, but ill always feel like something is misplaces, ive always felt like this. i dont even know in what aspect this misplacing is. i truly js want to understand, i wish i wasnt so miserable all the time. not to mention, im already 17 and i feel like im so behind in js life as a whole, i dont know myself or what i dream of or what i want. im withering away.