This Tuesday will be my last day with my worker from Mental Health...

Honestly I do love her. She is kind and positive and sometimes makes funny little comments like when we're at the Lake she'll say to ourselves can we go for a ride on your boat!!! If there was a boater near by! She is amazing she always buys me a large French Vanilla coffee from the gas station topped off with regular coffee! And then she drives us down to the Lake near by, and it's the most relaxing, most therapeutic experience ever sitting at a picnic table near the lake shoreline as we listen to the waves lap up across the shore and the various birds and their calls! We usually go on Thursday afternoons and it's always sunny and there's usually nobody around on rare occasion a family or a boater will be there otherwise we've got the Lake to ourselves including the squirrels! Back in the day we even used to bring my hamster Squeekers in his little carrier cage!! Like that's how silly it was!!! The only thing that I noticed about her that I thought was odd, was she always had a hard time looking me directly into my eyes since day one!! I didn't mind though if that was her comfort zone I guess! But she will be missed!!! In her place though they are setting me up with a man as my new worker!!!! Of course it's a little bit awkward but not really... Unless he's super hawt lol!! Too hot to handle then I don't know what I will do with myself knowing full well God is watching me and my world will be visible for all to see what's in my heart!!! It needs to be PG!!!! I don't want to work my butt off trying to be innocent from within wasting all of my energy on that when in the end the truth always comes out in the wash ... But if he's normal, kind, and helpful and please God not a creep then I think we will manage!!! If it works and he's a good man and good at his job!!! That would be heaven sent!! Then maybe I could work on a new chapter in my life and that's taking good care of my mind and body in this time before our sons wedding!! I'm tired, I want to increase my stamina and endurance and work on my body, both working out physically and eating healthy! I want to work on my mental health by focusing on my faith, and surrounding myself with good people! I want to enjoy the last few years I have with my adult children who are 27, 22, and 19 whom haven't left the coup yet! I dread that day as one has already left and is getting married in May! I hope this transition goes well and that I like my new worker and that he likes me!!