i am alone

i think it may come off as slightly ungrateful but its not that. ive always complained abt living in a place where i have no friends, i dont go out and i am extremely depressed and now ive moved out to a foreign country with older siblings. its supposed to get better, considering i am able to go out whenever and wherever but it just doesnt seem to get better. im not entirely sure what it is but it feels like no matter where i go i am always out of place and i cannot make friends with anyone ever. i am extremely lonely and will likely spend my birthday alone this year again. it feels like i have sm opportunities but im fading past them all because i do not know what to do. nobody really likes me either and its obvious. everybody's friends with everybody else except for me, i feel like the background character in my own life. idk what im supposed to do anymore, i lost my one and only friend and never see her. i have also considered getting therapy to understand what is wrong with me and got in contact with a good therapist in the area, however apparently i cannot do anything alone as long as im a minor. i feel utterly hopeless and confused all the time because i just dont understand whats wrong with me. im almost 17 and have nothing going on except for uni where im average at best.