Her flashback hit hard last night

We were being intimate when she suddenly tensed up pushed me off her and the bed. She was hyperventilating looking focused on whatever it was she was seeing. I got back up on the bed next to her just talked to her to bring her back into the present reassuring her she was safe. Her breathing calmed and then came the tears hysterical crying she grabbed and held me I held her until she calmed and fell asleep.

It's heartbreaking to see her like that the littlest thing can trigger a memory she's seem me like that too. This morning we just lay together holding each other she kept apologising.

I hate the people who did this damage to her as much as those who hurt me. I want to see the good in the world but seeing her like that knowing what was done to her I have to accept there's disgustingly cruel evil in this world too