Overcome with so many emotions

When I got home of course I was so happy to be home and see the boys but after sitting outside everything just hit me at once
I was angry with my, embarrassed, ashamed and so disappointed that I couldn't keep myself from spiraling into such a dark place. Joel could see what was coming so he sent the boys inside and helped me through a pretty bad panic attack. I guess I just needed to get all those feelings out.

Once the boys are in bed we're going to listen to Frank Sinatra, have hot tea and honey relax