how do you deal with 'extreme' anger problems because of unjust situations you faced in life
when you have extreme, and i do mean ' extreme' levels of anger, perhaps rage, because you had to go through a lot of injustices in your life and 'unfairness' at the hands of others?
like i had a wonderful childhood, but when i hit secondary school it all changed, i lost touch with my primary school friends, couldn't make friends in the big school, had learning disabilities and suffered quite a bit of teasing.....but i have been in many unjust situations as well.
i bottled up a lot of anger, emotion and rage because of all the injustices i had to go through...then years after secondary school in my late teens used to go out into society and have rage outbursts at strangers......because at the time i wanted to take out my anger on somebody because of what i went through......plus i had paranoia on top of that.
with immense inner strength, i am in a much better place mentally now, no longer have violent outbursts....but there's times i do still 'feel' very angry, when i clench my teeth and make animal noises...upon remembrance of my inustices long ago...or if i perceive someone's trying to trigger me in the present.....the immense 'extreme' anger all comes back, and it's frightening, because i feel 'out of control'?
my diagnoses is a personality disorder, which i manage extremely well now, again, with my own hard efforts and inner strength, which a lot of people don't have....and my elderly mum often reminds me ' a lot of people couldn't of got through what you have '. and i realize it's so true.
anyway i just want to know how you cope with extreme levels of anger born out of injustice you had to endure??
like i had a wonderful childhood, but when i hit secondary school it all changed, i lost touch with my primary school friends, couldn't make friends in the big school, had learning disabilities and suffered quite a bit of teasing.....but i have been in many unjust situations as well.
i bottled up a lot of anger, emotion and rage because of all the injustices i had to go through...then years after secondary school in my late teens used to go out into society and have rage outbursts at strangers......because at the time i wanted to take out my anger on somebody because of what i went through......plus i had paranoia on top of that.
with immense inner strength, i am in a much better place mentally now, no longer have violent outbursts....but there's times i do still 'feel' very angry, when i clench my teeth and make animal noises...upon remembrance of my inustices long ago...or if i perceive someone's trying to trigger me in the present.....the immense 'extreme' anger all comes back, and it's frightening, because i feel 'out of control'?
my diagnoses is a personality disorder, which i manage extremely well now, again, with my own hard efforts and inner strength, which a lot of people don't have....and my elderly mum often reminds me ' a lot of people couldn't of got through what you have '. and i realize it's so true.
anyway i just want to know how you cope with extreme levels of anger born out of injustice you had to endure??
46-50, M
