Damn... I am too tired to discuss complexes

But it doesn't erase them...

I have this complex of fearing being looked down upon because of my age.
I think because I am the youngest and was looked down upon.

When Im hypomaniac, i dont care because I believe Im the best and age genuinely doesnt matter.

But now in this depression phase I cannot accept it. It is like all the trauma is resurfacing.

And crap this feels so trivial but it is making my head explode. I just hate myself.