I don’t know how I feel

HII. Im a 13 year old male from England. All my life I’ve had a very bad memory. It’s a blessing and a curse. I can’t remember most of yesterday. And at the very most I remember a thing or 2 from a week ago. Because of my bad memory, trauma and stuff haven’t been a problem. I had a crush on my ex best friend. We knew eachother for a year and an half. And after we stopped being friends and blocked Eachother, I got over her in l 4 days. I barely remembered anything about her. Just her name and where she’s from and a few messages we exchanged. And that made me not miss her as much . I also don’t know how to feel a lot of the time. I just go day to day with little objectives. Get up. Go to school. Come back. Watch tiktok in bed. Sleep. I don’t know if this depressing lifestyle has had an affect on my memory. I just don’t know how to feel a lot of the time. I’m really not sure where I’m even going with this. Just having a bad memory pisses me off immensely. I can’t even remember how to feel let alone what I had for dinner yesterday