I really don’t want to be alive.

I know that unaliving myself isn’t the right thing to do and I don’t feel like I have anything lethal enough or sure enough to act on it. I still have a fear of messing up and being worse off than before. I just feel all these negative things about myself. The world is falling apart. SOOO many people are hurting for so many reasons. Life just isn’t fair. I feel like not being here will be what’s best for me and the ones I love.