I’m scared I’ll never be fully able to take care of myself

From my severe depression to anxiety and other mental health struggles. To my sleep wake cycle and my circadian rhythm and having fatigue on and off throughout the day and not sleeping at night as an insomniac. I wonder if I will ever have stable work and income even preferably flexible hours and remote work whether as an employee of freelance independent contractor. I wonder if I will ever finish university and get all those degrees, certificates, and diplomas I want. My concentration is very foggy and poor. I’m having trouble just to finish proofreading and. Editing courses just to secure some freelance work. I’m a mess. My parents don’t trust me to drive so I have to get rides everywhere and my dad just sold the car to my cousin and when I’m in a better place they will let me drive again and get me an all wheel drive. My parents keep telling me I should change how warmly I dress for the season how irritating it is. They are trying to get me the services I need and get me to a place with more independence and freedom. I fear I’ll never fully be able to financially support or emotionally support myself and I will always need some sort of assistance as bills and everything else don’t come naturally to me. My parents are trying to get me on disability benefits and maybe some help with finding a part time job. It’s a long process though and I’m supposed to just wait until things tie together. I wish I had been a functional infp or infj who was thriving as an adult. I wish I had been precocious, extremely talented, accomplished, and distinguished from a young age. The best case scenario is I have some assistance for a few years until my mid 30s or so. The worst case scenario is I will never be fully independent and traveling around the world while I work as a digital nomad. My grandparents, parents, and sister say it depends on me. I wonder if I will ever learn all the languages I desire, and master being a published writer and author and excellent at drawing and painintng arts and textile/needle crafts. I’m already so far behind in life. I couldn’t have made a life with my ex boyfriend like this. I hope he is happy with his new future wife. I hate having mental health disabilities.