My psychiatrist dropped me as a patient.

I'm on a medication that, if I don't get, I'll start shaking violently, hallucinating, throwing up, and blacking out.

My psychiatrist apparently can't stand me so much that she dropped me as a patient. Apparently I was missing appointments. I don't remember missing appointments. But according to her I've been missing them for at least a year. Maybe my memory is somehow so bad that I don't remember appointments that I miss.

Is that my fault? If she's correct then I'm having severe memory issues, apparently scheduling appointments, forgetting them, and not only that but forgetting them so thoroughly that I don't even realize when I miss them. That's a medical issue.

But I guess it's such an inconvenience to her that she's willing to stop prescribing me the medication I need to not end up in hospital.

So if I suddenly disappear from SW then I'm probably dead from going into withdrawals from this medication. At least my psych doesn't have to lose 15 minutes out of every three months we're apparently supposed to meet. Hope it's worth my life.