Letting go of control

I think I’ve been trying to control everyone and everything around me for a very long time out of fear. Fear of loss, fear of abandonment and fear of change. I thought it was helping me but I’ve been in an anxious state for months now. But today I got a glimpse of what it was like to not control, I don’t know if I was just caring less, or that I had the awareness that my anxious thoughts were self created and not supported by anything in reality, but I had enough separation from my anxiety to see that there was another way.