Mental Health

i have decided i need to do something about my mental health which also means i will be homeless next week, i am currently housed by a charity ( i have my own room but need to volunteer for them 40 hours a week) i struggle with work especially having to face the public taking donations etc, anxiety struggles and abuse for not accepting unsuitable items etc. my back hurts a lot, my mental health is not good, i cannot work with the public (i would never work in retail) a colleague got annoyed because i made a mistake and i was ready to leave because i get emotional easily, i just want to be left alone and have time out, i am going to try to get into a hostel or ymca and get some support etc. i cannot claim benefits while i am here either which is hard as i am entitled to universal credit. i just cannot live in place like this anymore, i have dark thoughts and get depressed, i am having a few beers today because my head is a shed, its been nearly a month since i have had a drink. anyone else been through similiar?

Tugasaki · 61-69, M

I deal with suicidal idealation everyday, some nights i pray i just die in my sleep, i have guilt, depression, and i hate myself so much, there are times i wish i get pulled over by cops and i will ask them to draw their weapons and shoot me in yhe head, you could imagine what their response would be to a direct question like would go about, i live alone each day is a struggle with constant body pains, what do i do about it, i stick to myself,currently out if meds, so i understand were your coming from i empathize your situation, and offer no advice.wish you all the best.