It’s becoming a routine waking up at 4am anxious about work

Anxious thoughts feel disorienting. If my eyes are closed I feel like they are darting all around, sometimes it feels like they are going in and out of focus. It’s accompanied by a fast pulse and I wonder if that is where it starts. It feels like my heart rate is up and won’t go down and that causes me to think anxious thoughts which I read as something is wrong so I obsess on how to make it go away, and it doesn’t so I just keep building my anxiety, until I just check out and can’t do anything.

If I address the way my body feels instead of the thoughts my anxiety lessons. I think the only reason it keeps coming back is because I keep putting myself in the environment that causes it which is my job. If I didn’t work there this constant state of anxiety would go away, or at least move on to something manageable. There is so much to keep track of there.