The honeymoon phase

The problem is that I am only here in Canada for a few weeks and you can't judge people and places in weeks time!! I am trying to pass judgements, to sense the place and the people, and I don't think this is fair to anyone including me... Plus, I am REALLY not in the right state of mind... I am as sad and lonely as I could get.. I just lost my mother, and I think the more time passes, the more sadness hits me... Add to that being in a strange place, and that this whole plan of immigration was connected to her the most, and it makes me feel even more strange and sad. Most immigrants I was following on youtube were saying, oh you will go through the honeymoon phase when you first move to Canada where everything will look and feel pink... Well it doesn't.. Everything feels strange, and I am filled with weird feelings every place and town I go.. Every place I go has its own taste of strangeness, it is weird how it is the same feeling, but it still differs...

So no, i am not in the honeymoon phase and I don't know if this is a good or bad thing.. Maybe it is good to keep my expectations low... So that when I come for good, I want be hit but the end of the honeymoon and move to the divorce stage O.o