Mental health issue one - addiction

This morning I like to talk about addiction to start off a series of postings on mental health. No, I'm not an expert though I've had some experience in dealing with being unhealthy. I'm sure that there will be others here who recognise someone who's plainly talking about something that bothers them. Talk. That's the most important element to finding back the stability needed. Personally, I'm now typing this away in the hope that it will aid me and others. What is it all about? We're here on the internet and it's so easy to lose ones mind after having spent some time on here. Haven't you come to the conclusion yet that your feelings aren't what's left after desires and dreams are shared with each other on here? I'm talking about some of us coming back to this realm to find again and again for what we seek. Love is entirely different that way because when that hits it's really forever. No, I fell in love online only once and that was after a few months of intense conversation. I know that's real. What bothers me is that a selfish person like myself always wants more and more. Not that is wrong on itself, but it does complicate things. Lets say that one conversation starts and one really enjoys it, the body fluids are indeed rushing through ones body. Nothing wrong as such with that but it's indeed been my own experience that it becomes so easily toxic. My mind becomes misty and my languages becomes uneasily not my own any more. Again, not talking about the easily accessable stuff. Yes, one is still oneself and those desires are indeed one's own. No, I'm talking about losing onself during the conversation that's running. Although one is frank and honest towards the other the mind lets one down anyhow. The mind wants more, and so does the body although that can be fixed fairly easily. The first, however, hooks itself on what it wants. It's clearly selfish, domineering and ultimately a weight around ones neck. Because of the want it turns so easily to an addiction. That makes it so difficult to emerge from it. Again, I'm not talking about falling in love online, etc. as such, but rather the toxic waste that comes after some really messy love making. The trouble that I have is that the conversation becomes in my head another world. A world that lures oneself off the rails and into a clear addiction. Becoming aware of this is the only solution to the problem and brings everything back to some normal functioning. Yes, addiction is serious but not many people know that most will be dealing with it almost daily and in silence. What I wanted to put out here is also a bit tongue in cheek, yes, because I'm basically alright these days but I've been much worse too.