If anyone needs to talk about anything, I’m here.

@SolGryn sorry to hear that. Were you diagnosed with it? Really appreciate you sharing

@Carlisle yeah. And schizophrenia. Hard to be with someone when everyone thinks you are a freak

My disorder makes me push the people I love the most away. Whenever I feel lucky to have someone in my life, I get so scared that they will leave me or reject me that I sabotage the relationship by acting too clingy and insecure or by leaving (and wishing he will chase me). When I get this way, I’m extremely vigilant of any signs that the person doesn’t love me anymore. This makes me act out over ridiculous things like for example: him not initiating sex that night. I can’t control it and it pushes people away.
Do you care to elaborate how your disorder destroyed every relationships you had? @SolGryn

@Lolaxoxo22 I completely understand many of the things that you mentioned. I've been there and done the same. I tend to retreat within myself and let him take over. I'm told that my eyes change and how I speak changes like I'm a completely different person. It scares people away or makes them judge me like I'm some sort of freak...

Are you taking any medication to help? Also, do you have a support group or anyone who will listen when you need to talk? @SolGryn

@Lolaxoxo22 I am taking medication but it only does so much. I do not have anyone to talk to about it. I dont have any friends. I've spent my life alone for the most part

You need to see a doctor and let them know. you need to change medications. It usually takes a few try before you find the perfect fit for you. No one deserves to suffer this way. I’m sorry you feel lonely. I’m here if you wanna talk. About anything. @SolGryn

@Lolaxoxo22 I've been trying different meds for many years now. They help but are still limited. I'm sorry I made this about me. Are you okay?

@SolGryn Iv added you as a friend.
Here too if you need a friend. Don’t ever have to feel alone. 🤗

I feel good today. I feel like I need a few more friends for support and I think I can help support others too. I’m french canadian and I also want to write better in english. @SolGryn

@Carlisle thank you...it means a lot to me. Mind if I message you sometime? I'm falling asleep right now

@Lolaxoxo22 I'm glad you are well. Your english seems pretty good. Maybe we can talk more later. I'm getting really sleepy right now

Of course! Good night xoxo
@SolGryn

@SolGryn sure. Goodnight