I actually would rather never be here

I think most people appreciate you and that's what matters the most 🙂 there will always be someone trying to pile sh*t over you for the most unlogical reasons, it's inevitable. Since 99% of the time those kind of harsh criticism are based on an idiosyncratic sensitiveness and not on rational judgement, all you have to do is to be able to ignore him and to go over that. And especially convince yourself that that is not the truth. If we cared about all of those people trying to put us down we would never live a serene life, not because of what just happened in fact, but because anxiety that this could soon happen again in the future would devour us. The only person who has the right to be bitterly critical of you is yourself.