This is kind of personal but I've been recovering from an eating disorder and I need some reassurance

Some days it just feels so pointless. Like I just feel so horrible and disgusting and uncomfortable in my body. I feel like I looked way better before and I just feel like a fat piece of shit who's let myself go.I just need reassurance sometimes that it's just my body dismorphia and that all this mental and physical agony and discomfort is worth something.