I Have Erectile Dysfunction
Ugh....
Well, my story's a heart-saddening one. But, enough of that.
The point is It's been me and my hand for a few months now, since my ex left me. The life had been dwindling out of me (my actual life here, not my dick's life), as our relationship became less and less good.
Then there was one thing that always got me off (no prizes for guessing what!).
Then I started to lose that, seeing it for what it is, and seeing people for people again, sort of becoming more of a human rather than an alien outsider.
Now that doesn't get me, and I met a girl last weekend whom I'd known for a few years but barely seen. Then, we accidentally ended up in her bed. I don't need to explain here - that's for another experience.
Point is she climbed on top, and I got very little. Tonnes of pre-cum lubricational juices (embarrassing) but nothing happened. She got off, I got on a lil later and still nothing. Now I know I'm not ready for sex with her yet, and she's a lil bigger than I've ever had before so my hands weren't completely comfortable running over her body for the first time. AND we've never even been on a date. And I'd psyched myself up for 9mths of pulling myself together and becoming more human - not jumping into bed with her!
So, whether or not I have a problem I can't really say. I've been having trouble with desperately needing the loo suddenly, and often. Got given meds for that (Solifenacin), then got acid reflux. Meds for that (PPI = lansoprazole) -> crazy hyper/crash/jittery/shaky. That may also have been influenced by not getting to sleep til 12 last night being so excited that it was confirmed (as could be) that she felt exactly the same about me as I do her.
So, we wait. I'm hoping it's just that I've found love, and nothing else will 'get me off' for a while now. I just need to be more comfortable with her, and all will be well. That's what I'm hoping. If it isn't that, then... I'm all ears for solutions. . .
Well, my story's a heart-saddening one. But, enough of that.
The point is It's been me and my hand for a few months now, since my ex left me. The life had been dwindling out of me (my actual life here, not my dick's life), as our relationship became less and less good.
Then there was one thing that always got me off (no prizes for guessing what!).
Then I started to lose that, seeing it for what it is, and seeing people for people again, sort of becoming more of a human rather than an alien outsider.
Now that doesn't get me, and I met a girl last weekend whom I'd known for a few years but barely seen. Then, we accidentally ended up in her bed. I don't need to explain here - that's for another experience.
Point is she climbed on top, and I got very little. Tonnes of pre-cum lubricational juices (embarrassing) but nothing happened. She got off, I got on a lil later and still nothing. Now I know I'm not ready for sex with her yet, and she's a lil bigger than I've ever had before so my hands weren't completely comfortable running over her body for the first time. AND we've never even been on a date. And I'd psyched myself up for 9mths of pulling myself together and becoming more human - not jumping into bed with her!
So, whether or not I have a problem I can't really say. I've been having trouble with desperately needing the loo suddenly, and often. Got given meds for that (Solifenacin), then got acid reflux. Meds for that (PPI = lansoprazole) -> crazy hyper/crash/jittery/shaky. That may also have been influenced by not getting to sleep til 12 last night being so excited that it was confirmed (as could be) that she felt exactly the same about me as I do her.
So, we wait. I'm hoping it's just that I've found love, and nothing else will 'get me off' for a while now. I just need to be more comfortable with her, and all will be well. That's what I'm hoping. If it isn't that, then... I'm all ears for solutions. . .
36-40, M
