@Whitenight: when u can find the calm side..you can enjoy the chaos just put of kicking distance. I spent my life in helping ppl reduce the chaos in their lives through the peaceful voice of reason and love
Dear companion, you are not alone. It can sometimes feel as a heavy weight to carry the world but the reward is the love and happiness of the people and our expansion for reaching out with our hearts. The expansion is worth everything. How grateful arent we to assist the planet :)
@Whitenight: my efforts are rewarded with neglect so I drift back to the shadows until some one else needs to use me and throw me away. My happiness is short lived. Easier to just live in a permanent state if numb pain..
@TwistedTitus: You have circulated in your thoughts long enough for you to have lost your connection to your divine self. You know that the big reward is not peoples words, it is what the universe brings you to more advance states of being so that you can do your work even better.
Helping people is not a work of ego, but your mindset is. If you step out of the mindset you will see...
@Whitenight: I completely agree and the universe is kind to me. Ego is severely damaged and not seeking attention. I could use some pride gained from people uttering a simple thank you...
@twistedtitus: What do you desire in return that is not given to you?
I advice you to not hold any expectations of people because it leads to dissapointment. Everything that you can control you can change but never other people.
@Whitenight: I know. I'm at the point where I've done enough divine work that I can relax and stay away from them. There's only one reward I truly seek. My true love that I found in a soul mate. Don't expect u to believe she's real but the thoughts I've added to my journal might persuade you. It's also on my fb
@TwistedTitus: If you truly help people out of love, you know that you should not expect anything in return.
You have more than one soulmate walking on this planet, the universe conspires for you to meet when you are ready. I see that you will meet her but it will take time, maybe in 1.5 years. You will meet when you are both ready and aligned with the experience.
Until then you will meet a few people that will feel like soulmates but there karmic relationships. You will meet them to prepare yourself for when you meet your soulmate.
@Whitenight: been there done that. Met her once in school at a public event I attended in another town. We both thought about it many years later. Fate sent her to me as a cruel joke. She the only true soulmate. I do have kindred spirits but there's only one true soulmate
She could be mine if I stay strong...the work I do isn't always for the Lord. But I do keep him in mind as his wrath is mighty. I'm caught in the middle. Trying to help both good and evil to help achieve inner balance
@TwistedTitus: Well, I do see that you have several. A soulmate is someone you have shared several life experiences with that were all positive. A person who is amplifying you in every way.
This girl and you have also had negtive lifetimes that resulted in a karma which you are dealing with in this life- thats why all the drama occurs.
@Whitenight: makes more sense than anyone else... thank you. I'll try not to run from her..was going to this morning until she left him as she now has no reason for stating. All good things come in time but I can't afford to miss the opportunity as it passes for I'll be doomed to a life of misery. I believe I have a very ancient (not just old) soul. Would you agree?
@TwistedTitus: All you can do is make sure to do all you can do, the rest is uncontrollable. Positive attitude and intention will help you maintain the mindset.
I feel that you are an old soul. You are learning from experiences and relations of this life still. You have had experiences on other planets too but have been on earth for quite some time.
@TwistedTitus: I want to share with you about the ego.. comparing your souls journey with other souls is the mind of the ego.. try to not compare yourself with others because it creates seperation. We arent seperate. You learn when you are ready as well as others learn when they are ready, but what you learn and when is uncomarable. On this level time and space doesnt even exist. If you rush your souls journey you will fall on the path you walk on but arent facing because you keep your eyes on the end of the road. Creates more trials and experiences for you.. your intuition will guide you to what you are ready to integrate.
I guess you could say that, I have incarnated in many different forms.
@Whitenight: I agree. My lesson lately have been learned while I've been an instrument following my "intuition" only recently has my free will returned. Was always there but it's best to take the hint from the universe. I know we are all tied. I have made many mistakes rushing have my life but it's now at a standstill
@TwistedTitus: You are integrating and healing. It is a process that can go on for a long time... everything new you have learnt is being integrated and for this to happen the physical slows down a bit..
When you feel completely stagnant as if nothing new comes to you it is time to circulate new energy. You can do this easily by changing daily routines, eat differently at other times than you usually do and do at least one new thing a day. Think of it as braking patterns, it forms new patterns.
Youd feel good if you go out in nature and work out. If not too cold walk barefoot and recharge/ground your energy. It will help you see where you are in life and what to prepare for.
@Whitenight: no I'm not on there. Standstill has been given to me after I was plunged into a living purgatory. My standstill is the chance to actually install a routine as I live life like a transient homeless. Home Aquired to a degree. Now to learn how to take care of myself now. Fire is my source. Water is second. The rest help sure. A little of everything but my other elements tend not to drain much if at all. Exercise and quitting smoking is almost in taking effect... I feel like we never were aloud to communicate freely in the past... the merging of positive and negative can be unpredictable at best...but we're here now and not much can be done thanks to free will 😈 it's nice to see you again my dear
@TwistedTitus: Are you a sagittarius? If you have alot of one element you need to balance it out with the others. All five elements in you and you take form of a dragon. Too much fire burns you out, the fire needs something to consume, earth and air to its help. Water to still your emotions.
Theres a reason for everything yes and Im grateful that we attracted eachother today.
Be patient with the healing process, you blossom like a flower and when fully open bees will come for nectar. Dont rush the flower, water it and bring as much light as you can and it will blossom 💜
@Whitenight: I'm always taking in all the elements. Haven't had fire for years. Not helpful. Always knew I needed it. I'm a Virgo born the year of the snake. Very dangerous combination. I try not to take advantage of my resources. Healing will only occur if I let it...not sure I do as I thrive in misery... well I'm comfortable with it. All good comes with a price...one that I'm becoming unwilling to pay. I'd prefer no happiness and to just absorb the negativity of others as it feeds another element...desire. after taking their misery their left with their desires. Usually peace of mind with a touch of happiness. That's rearward enough for me as it feeds me. I am a modest person on the outside as people see me. But my intent is unique
@TwistedTitus: You are taking in others energies as well as you dont allow the healing process to occur. You havent learnt the art of transmutation either and that makes this very dangerous. Because in my opinion negative emotions and desire arent correlate to eachother as well as desire is the function of the ego. To have a healthy energy is fundamental in spirit work and with people too. I do understand the function of absorbing the emotions and leave the person clear, but the method can even result in illness for you.
Why wont you allow yourself to heal, do you fear the process or outcome in some way or do you hold onto something?
@Whitenight: I haven't rely been given the time to heal until now. I'm more the willing to take the pain of thy people for the greater good. The needs of the many out weigh the needs of the few... I'm grateful for my life. I see all possibilities and now I get to pick which direction to go. I've been an instrument of the divine for awhile. This has brought me peace. I'm unlike any other. I'm a lot like jigsaw from the movies only the torture I inflict is mental. I force the healing process people are afraid to start. I intimate chaos and change. When I disappear...lives are substantially better. I feel it's my fate to walk this earth alone. At least for now. When I'm ready then the universe will bring her to me. Until then it's one day at a time. Minute by minute..
@TwistedTitus: I understand very well it is a good thought. Only remember that you havent been given the right to act forcefully on other people no matter how positive your intention is. You can do this without force. You can master yourself and your energy to become so loving and bright that naturally peoples negative thoughts and emotions fades in your presence. By presenting a good example. No walls are strong enough for love to brake.
