@Whitenight: I haven't rely been given the time to heal until now. I'm more the willing to take the pain of thy people for the greater good. The needs of the many out weigh the needs of the few... I'm grateful for my life. I see all possibilities and now I get to pick which direction to go. I've been an instrument of the divine for awhile. This has brought me peace. I'm unlike any other. I'm a lot like jigsaw from the movies only the torture I inflict is mental. I force the healing process people are afraid to start. I intimate chaos and change. When I disappear...lives are substantially better. I feel it's my fate to walk this earth alone. At least for now. When I'm ready then the universe will bring her to me. Until then it's one day at a time. Minute by minute..
@TwistedTitus: I understand very well it is a good thought. Only remember that you havent been given the right to act forcefully on other people no matter how positive your intention is. You can do this without force. You can master yourself and your energy to become so loving and bright that naturally peoples negative thoughts and emotions fades in your presence. By presenting a good example. No walls are strong enough for love to brake.
@Whitenight: that is my current method. No one sees my true misery...I've seen the effects of rushing perfection and I dare not anymore so I sit and wait for the next tortured soul to come to me when the time us ready. Like a life coach...Won't give answer but will guide you to them
