Sometimes it's hard to accept good things because you know how easily you can lose it

@thewindupbirdchronicles sometimes we're out own obstacle & it's hard to accept that. I think that's the page I'm on

@ChiefWalksWith40oz I've been mine before, and you are right, it's difficult. Maybe the only thing that matters upon that is, if it's you, you have a good starting point as only you can be you?

@RebelFox sometimes when good things don't show up, we gotta create our own good things. It's hard. But even shit we don't realize, could be good things. Like your son himself.. he's a good thing. You pushing living your life every day with him is a good thing. But I hear being a mommy can be draining & start to feel like that's all your identity. It's not though.. but I'm glad you enjoy being there for your son

@ChiefWalksWith40oz Mom is pretty much it. I have passions I can’t pursue, people I can’t meet, I just have to be there for him. Except my wild nights, Ihave gotten a few of those in 😈 But ultimately, I’m just pretending I enjoy his video game stuff to be supportive of his interests while my brain is atrophying. As a creative that sucks. But as a mommy I’d die for my kid, so I’m there for him and the person he has the right to grow to be. I don’t feel like I’m important otherwise. I don’t have family, nobody close, so I try to make the best of it. Vanlife, adventures, carnivals and things to keep it interesting. I don’t feel like I’m enough. I know I’m not to be real 😆 kids need more than one parent. But it’s not gonna happen, so I’m good with him knowing I gave it all to him. Hopefully he will have a better life with more love in it 🖤

@RebelFox I had an ex who was a mom & I remember her telling me the same kinds of things. Apparently it's a lot more common than I would've thought because since then I've had a lot of conversations like that. It's crazy how many moms out there feel like having a child takes their whole life away. It's like their only identity anymore is "mom" but you're still a person too. Just a person that's working her ass off & made someone a priority.
I'm glad you're son has you but [i]you[/i] gotta have you too sometimes

@Reject yeah I like that I can recognize how I feel a little better. Makes growing a lot more of a conscious thought

@AuRevoir haha normally I'd joke with you man but I think I'm out of jokes for the night 😅

@nightjourney yeah I've done that before. When I start to like someone so I push myself away. I've even done that when I'm already with someone & I start to fear it'll go bad.

Pushing yourself away or other people away is just a way to protect your feelings but you miss out on a lot when you do things that way

@ChiefWalksWith40oz passed by it 🤔 so you don't care

@ExtremeNext no I commented on it joking with you but I was at work & I didn't really realize what you were really saying. Now I'm sad 😔

@ChiefWalksWith40oz you should be sad

@ChiefWalksWith40oz I understand this so much. I am sorry you feel that way too.

@iamonfire696 I'm sorry you do too 🥺

@ChiefWalksWith40oz thank you 💖